be still my soul

lately, ive been learning a lot about silence & solitude...i've been learning that i'm not very obediant, and i'm more likely to not follow God in what he calls me to. i don't want to be offended by him, i want to know his heart and i want my vision to be aligned with his. i want to be pure and i want to call out to him and have him reveal things to me that i do not know (jer. 33:3). im learning that i can be around a crowd of people and still feel alone unless i am spending the time i need in intimacy with the Father. so ive been trying out this whole silence/solitude thing. its been so good. its good to take the pillow out from in front of Jesus' face and silence myself before him, seperating myself from the world and listen to his voice for a change. its good to stand in his counsel. its good to know him. its good to seek him. for he'll be found by those who seek him. i love who he is. i love being silent and alone with him.

"Be still my soul and know he is God."

For God alone my soul waits in silence.

garden

you hedge me in.
with skin.
all around me.
i am a garden enclosed
a locked garden.

well its you and me alone, God.
you and me alone.
so come into your garden.

im no longer my own.
im your garden.
i dont wanna waste my life living on the outside
im gonna live from the inside out. (misty e.)

this is your inheritance, this is my justice.

in pursuit of the holy
the only thing that matters
the veil is torn
the gates lift up their heads
a sound rumbles forth
declaring a holy visitation
divine declaration
humble resignation
of who i am
of who you are
approach steadily the throne of grace
the fire burns with unsurpassable greatness
here is the altar
here is the oil
welcome
approach boldly the throne of grace
stand steadily beside me lifting intercession
this is your inheritance
this is my justice
here in my outstretched hand
claim it beloved
claim that which i bought
the blood on your hands
the blood of the nations
covered by the blood of the lamb
your sins
for my holy sinless broken body
the spirit of adoption
broken forth
you cannot be disinherited
you cannot be disowned
i will not relent
do not relent
in pursuit of the holy
this is your inheritance
this is my justice