today for now

"theres something powerful about silence. i dont know entirely what it is, but something of silence speaks louder than words. music for example, good music (in my opinion) often is comprised of instrumental (and sometimes electronically enhanced) melodic harmonies that vary and flow aesthetically from quiet rhythmic interludes to occasional explosions of chaotic organized sound. for example listen to "the long spring" by explosions in the sky. words arent neccesary to communicate and verify its meaning and existence. it just is. one might argue that music without words leaves it open to interpretation. (just like a painting without a description leaves it open to interpretation) but, i dont think thats neccesarily true. all music has an underlying tone- a beat a note a key -that gives the song a particular aire. it says something without really saying something and its heard the way its said no matter whose ears it reaches. another example if you know guitar tab strum this chord - 022032 - its simple but in its simplicity it still emits a sound of longing and sorrowful yearning. when i play it, my ears internally ache to hear the next sound in a progression, the completion of a pattern. 022032 is opened ended thats just the way it is and the emotion of sadness attached isnt really open to change. (of course the beat or manner in which the chord is strummed also plays a major part in which emotion is communicated) anyhow -that rant aside - i dont think ive realized until the past week how significant silence is. i havent really had words for anything, or anyone. not even to describe what i was feeling or what my days consisted of. i spent a lot of the week in silence not because i really wanted to, but because i had nothing to say. however in that silence the lord spoke very clearly to me in several different areas. and he didnt even speak in that "still small voice" as it is so often termed. he spoke to me in a way ive never really heard before. of just knowing (and maybe that is the "still small voice" who knows) ive havent been doing all that well lately and at first i was worried that i was falling into complacency and a worldly drunkeness (not literally alcohol) that i so often fade into. but really it wasnt any of that, really it wasnt anything to be worried about and i wasnt worried because through it i knew god was speaking to me. in that silence. i'd be at work listening to a co-worker talk about nothing in particular and i'd look at the clock and it would say 333 and god'd be like "i see you even when you dont see me" and it just threw me every time. that might sound creepy and yeah, it kind of makes me look insane, but really it was just an assurance of his peace of his presence that speaks louder than words -any words that this world could ever have. all that being said, in that time i was photographing in part, but not speaking or even thinking really, i was just being and didnt bother to put anything up. but tomorrow i will. peace."

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 25

the journey: day 25:

solomon's porch

melissa and i like to go study at coffee shops together. (okay im not actually studying, more reading or editing photos or the like) we went to solomons and grabbed some coffee/tea until the closed -sadly at 9pm -before we headed to the library porch. it rained today, and it was a lovely day filled with work, rest and play.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 24

the journey: photo 24

h&h house

heidi and i went out to photograph an old abandoned house down the road. i dont know why i love photographing old rundown desolate subjects such as these, but i do. they're lonely - yet depicting that they once saw something better. i think theres something of hope still in them. if you want to see more of the h&h house, (name changed to protect location) check the flickr site periodically -im in the midst of creating an album.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 23

Photo 23:

I Cut My Hair Today

Well it was about that time, my hair was pretty much out of control, so I decided to cut it today. It took awhile, cause I had to use mirrors and both sides of my brain (because I had to reverse directions and such in order to cut it properly) and it was rather exhausting. But I think it looks great, its pretty choppy which is perfect because it can look uneven on purpose now. I didnt take this photo, obviously, Melissa did, but I chose it because, well it pretty much sums up the majority of my day (that sounds shallow). No, actually I went to watch Born into Brothels (amazing movie) tonight with the Asbury Human Trafficking Awareness group and it was pretty sweet...as sweet as a movie can be of that type. No, but really this documentary is probably on of my favorites ever, so rent it please.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 22

Photo 22:

Melissa's Desk

I was walking to my room, and I saw the sun shining through the blinds onto this lone flower. Sometimes the ordinary is really lovely if you look close enough. I should probably insert something else incredibly whitty and noteworthy here, but I don't really have anything else to say.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 21

Photo 21:

"How Beautiful upon the Mountains are the Feet of Him

who Brings Good News, who Publishes Peace..."

Bethany and I went out to the Mansion to take some photographs together before she headed back to Pine Mountain, GA. It was a beautiful Sunday morning, and I could feel the nearness of God in that place. I love to photograph feet, and B was my standin. I was reminded of Isaiah 52 while taking this...this is what the Lord says about our feet. :)

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 20

Photo 20:

Some Thoughts on James

I spent some time today out on the seminary library's porch doing some journaling on James. It's a good book. Ranjo left his cereal bowl, and the light glimmering off the table "forced" me to pull out the ol' Nikon. (I know, I'm a traitor I've used a Cannon 35mm SLR for years...I don't know what I'm doing with a Nikon Digital...but its treated me well)

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 19

Photo 19:

Conversation

Bethany is back in Wilmore bringing again with her much joy, adventure, encouragement and conversation. This photo was taken while we were waiting for our Indian dish of tandoori chicken to finish marinating in the fridge. While we waited, we enjoyed some Ale8's and Kerala Vegatables on Pita Bread, all while conversing on our current photo a day/blogging adventure.

...more to come on thoughts about "conversation"

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 18

Photo 18:

Of Dreams

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 16 & 17

So, for two days I did not touch my camera. I know, I screwed up big time...but as Bethany and I disgussed this weekend, this isn't really a "challenge" its more a photo journey. These past two days remain photographically undocumented, but have not ceased to be eventful. Something that God spoke to me:

"You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you." Isaiah 26:3

I've been learning that there are a lot of strongholds over my mind, lies that I've believed -about myself and God and others that just need to be broken, my way of thinking needs to be invaded by Gods way of seeing things. A part of the whole mind battle is dwelling on things that my mind doesn't need to be dwelling on, instead of taking every thought captive and surrending fully. Yeah, thats all I really have to say.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 15

i couldnt decide which photo to use, so i broke the rules and put up two.

Photo 15:

Food and Fellowship

i love cutting cilantro! i think i have a slight obsession with it, really im not joking.

melissa and i kind of went overboard with the potatos, she just kept giving them to me and i just kept cutting them...she wouldnt stop, what was i to do?

Random Thought

If you watch anything long enough, you're bound to eventually see it in a different light, and ultimately get a better picture. Its kind of the same with Jesus. If you sit in his presence long enough, you can't help but be changed...it just happens. There's hope for me yet. On that note, I'm going to bed...and I look forward to taking a picture when the sun comes up. :)

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 14

This might be my favorite picture so far...

Photo 14: Beauty in the Eye of the Beholder

Jillian and I went out to shaker village to watch the sunset, and we found some horses.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 13

Photo 13:

The City Sleeps...

This is what my street looks like at about 1am in the morning (ok so technically this was not taken on the 4th). Everything is still and silent, except for the crickets...its weird, I like it.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 12

Photo 12:

Melissa

Melissa is my lovely roomate,

I took a few pictures of her before she went out with Justin

and a few friends for dinner. This is one of my favorites.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 11

Photo 11:

sometimes you see dimly as in a mirror

I was out at figg yesterday, just thinking about some stuff. I'm an external processor, so I was just kind of thinking aloud, pretty sure I looked like an idiot. I always sort of thought that when Jesus sent revival, a great moving of his spirit, it would effect all flesh. I'm realizing this isn't neccesarily so. Yes, there are instances when ppl are just blown over by the power of God when they're not even expecting it, but theres also this resistance to the spirit...something I've never really thought about. It's sort of like an element of control, of unbelieving...I'm not really sure. Maybe of thinking to highly of ourselves, of thinking that the move of the spirit somehow revolves around us, that its based on our emotion or something we did or didnt do. Yeah, but Gods not like us, he doesnt change like the shifting shadows, like he lets us take part...he even lets us pray things into being, but if we didnt pray that doesn't effect if God is or isnt or does or doesnt. He isnt intimidated by us. Oh man, I think to highly of myself...I need to become less so he can manifest himself more in me. I see things so dimly, I need clarity.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 10

Photo 10:

At Sunset

I was walking the cross country trails behind the luce tonight, and the light rays hitting the top of the long grass all around me was really a sight to be seen. The light was soft and it illuminated the small whisps of grass perfectly. It was really beautiful. I took Lexie (The puppy of the house) out for a walk, and it was a really sweet time of soaking and listening and waiting on the lord. I also ran into Paul, a friend and prayer warrior from the college (he now goes to uk) as he was walking their family puppy. Lexie and Sophia (I think that was her name) weren't really sure what to think of each other, but it was such an encouragement to see Paul -he has such a heart for prayer and he's one of those people that you can just see the anointing of God upon. I was just reminded of how blessed I am to still reside in Wilmore. There's so many people here who just love Jesus and it really is a blessing to live here and be a part of such a beautiful community.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 9

Photo 9:

Jillian

Jillian and I went to the ol' mansion that the President of the seminary is supposed to live in (when there is one) and took some photos. It was a lovely day, a taste of fall, and we pretty much filled up the 4GBs of space on my memory card.

Jillian is a counseling student at the seminary and has a beautiful heart for prayer.

Shes also does these amazing prophetic paintings... I love her.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 8

Photo 8:
If Only I had a Green Thumb

Justin is growing things in our kitchen. It's really nice to have someone around that can identify just about any stick or leaf or flower that you hand him. AND my roomate and I don't really need to worry about our plants ever dying. Its really quite convenient. And it also adds aesthetic appeal to our kitchen.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 7

Photo 7:

A New Thing

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up;

do you not perceive it?

I am making a way in the desert

and streams in the wasteland...." Isaiah 43

I took this today up by the baseball fields behind the Luce at Asbury. The old building is rotted and torn apart. The grass around it is dry, the fields look like a wasteland. I walked out there and found myself mumbling "wow, theres no life out here." Instantly afterwards I saw a small butterfly on a flowering plant, it forced me to look closer. He's causing life to spring up in the wilderness, he's making a way when there is none. The mountains melt like wax before him. Watch out Wilmore, Revival is coming.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 6

Photo 6:

Are You in the Game?

"For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God’s law; indeed, it cannot. Those who are in the flesh cannot please God. You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. But if Christ is in you, although the body is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you." Rom 8

He's equipped us with his spirit, he said we could do greater works than these (John 14) - because he's [Jesus] is going to the father -and he's left his spirit as a guarentee. He's given us authority and dominion over darkness, because of the death we died in Christ, because of the life we live in Christ. Will we receive his power and authority? Its time to stop sitting on the fence (I speak this over myself). We're either for him or against him, in or out of the game. His spirit is here, empowerment is here, freedom is here -waiting, ready for the taking. Are we in the game?

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 5

I misplaced my battery charger, so I didnt get to take a photograph today with my nikon. However, tonight at starbucks as we were shutting our little kiosk down, I accidentally spilled about 20 some Ibs of espresso beans on the floor (after we had already mopped it). It wasnt one of those "the bag falls over and they all spill out" accidents either. It was a "I knocked one container over and then all the other containers kept falling like dominos and I just couldnt stop them" accident. Picture me aimlessly flailing at the espresso beans trying to keep them up -because thats what happened. To make matters worse, the vacuum cleaner needed to be emptied, so I attempted to take it a part and broke it also spilling its entire content on the freshly mopped floor. Bekah and I just had a good laugh though -at that point it was either that or crying. I took various photographs of the mess with my little 2px camera phone. It kind of looks like a billion little ants all over the floor and Bekah very much enjoying the experience of vacuuming them up. Most of the beans are hidden from site behind her though, so the photograph doesnt really give the full effect of the mess I made. Gotta love the pixelation too.

Photo 5:

Espresso Beans

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 4

Photo 4:

If I were a Painter

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"...and I'm dreaming of a place

where I can see your face

and I think my brush could take me there

but only...if I were a painter

and could paint a memory

I'd climb inside the swirling skies

to be with you..."

-Norah Jones

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I've been painting a lot more lately. (as well as photographing) When I paint, I get lost in the process of creating whatever it is I am creating and it is almost as Norah Jones puts it, "[climbing] inside the swirling skies." I hear Gods voice intimately when I'm in this place of deep contemplation and joyful worship. Its beautiful.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 3

Photo 3:

The Everyday Ordinary

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty."

Psalm 91:1

Recently my roomate and I decided we needed a chalkboard on our wall to write messages to each other. This week she wrote psalm 91:1 across the top of the board. I took this picture, not because I intended to use it as my "photograph of the day" but because I have a little bit of a fetish with photographing words. I assumed that the photograph was black and white (being the colors of the board and chalk) but after uploading it to my computer I realized that the sun glaring on the board added a strange green tint. Earlier today Bethany encouraged me with an email in which she quoted a recent conversation with a photography friend of hers..."you stated that you have to look for beauty because of your unchanging environment and im saying you dont have to look very far." After reading this, it was like a lightbulb went off in my brain (if someone had been photographing me at that moment I am positive a glowing orb of light around by head would have been captured on the film). What is this strange feeling of satisfaction and deep joy that is increasing inside of me? Could photographing my everyday mundane environment really be growing my appreciation and love for life itself? Never have I been so excited to step out in tomorrow and discover what new revelation awaits me. Never have I been so excited to live in THIS window of time, here in Wilmore, Ky. Never has God spoken so clearly in the everyday, unchanging environment I find myself in. Or maybe I just never stopped visualizing the future, to hear him in the present. I often think I need to some how lift myself up to meet with God, that I have to try and take myself to his level. Theres such joy in letting go and letting him meet me at mine. (cause my finite mind cant understand an infinite God anyway) Truth is, I dont have to look very far to find God, he's already found me and he's gracious enough to give my little mind glimpses into his unending uncomprehendable one. Whats even crazier than that is that I can actually understand his mind, because I now have the mind of Christ. I really dont have to look very far to find beauty, its all around me. Even what appeared to be a simple black and white photograph of a chalkboard contained a beautiful arrangement of colors. Why? Because light was cast on it. Okay, thats another really cool concept that I'll have to externally process later.

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 2

Photo 2:

Figg Lane

I often venture out to Figg Lane. Whether its to soak up the silence, spend some good time in the word, or to wade through muddy water with a friend, its never failed to consist of a good time. Today after work, Samantha and I decided we needed some sunshine and we went and visited ol' figg. The water was freezing, but we braved the frigid temperature and went wading anyway. (mainly because samantha lost her shoe and we were forced to retrieve it)

The 40 day photo challenge: Day 1

The 40 day photo challenge:
The great day has dawned (today) and although seperated by the state of Tennessee, Kentucky and Georgia find a way to unite through the photographic journey of Bethany and Amy. Bethany (one of my favorite people on the entire earth) and I have long discussed the idea of a 40 day photo challenge. A few years back we took part in a similar assignment in our photography II class at Asbury, which required we take a photograph a day for a week in order to visually describe our life in a greater way. And so here we are, greatly inspired and immensely excited about our creative adventure. We're going to take a photograph a day, and post it on our blogs, possibly writing a little something about each photograph. Check out B's blog here: http://www.xanga.com/sundowner83 (and if the link for some reason doesnt work, its linked on the right from my blog.)

Photo 1:

Magic Shoes

This year I've had the opportunity to volunteer as a youth leader at my church - gcf (great commission fellowship). It has been an amazing experience and is truely a blessing to be able to take part in the lives of these beautiful kids. One of the youth and I happen to have matching shoes. She excitedly claims they're "magic shoes" and insisted we both wear them for youth meeting. We rocked them out playing kickball and soccer the other night and well okay, we pretty much rock them out whenever we wear them cause we're cool like that.

lomography

i figured out how to do the fake lomo effect in photoshop today. itll have to do until i can buy a real lomographic camera. ive decided i think lomography is pretty darned sweet.

the greatest reality is this...

so we do not lose heart. though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. for this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison as we look not to the things that are seen but the things that are unseen. for the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. 2 cor 4:16

my dirty secret exposed

i have a love affair with the taylor 12 string....

sowing to the spirit or sowing to the flesh

indwelling spirit
i am not alone

indwelling spirit

i am not my own

you have not left me here alone

but what you've done

what you've done

is given me the dignity to choose you

the dignity to choose you

its life or death

sowing to the spirit

or sowing to the flesh

come and strengthen

with righteousness

come and strengthen

with christ within

(justin rizzo)