who is blind...

something i found somewhere that i liked for today.

i hate spiritual pride. i hate spiritual competition. i hate it when i hear someone say that so and so doesn't have the gift of tongues so they must not be annointed. i hate it when someone criticizes someone else based on their prayer that maybe wasn't eloquent enouh. i hate when someone claims the name "christian" but denies its power. i hate self-promotion. i hate the "God has given me a word of wisdom and i am more empowered than you" mentality. For was it not God who foretold all things from the beginning? Is it not he who teaches us how to pray? How then can we take the words and claim them as our own, if it was he who spoke them from the beginning? ((Who told of this from the beginning, so we could know, or beforehand, so we could say 'He was right'? No one told of this, no one fortold it, no one heard any words from you. I was the first to tell Zion 'look, here they are!' I gave Jerusalem a messenger of good tidings." Isa. 41:26)) i hate it when people come up to me and tell me what spiritual gifts i have and that i should pursue them, as if spiritual gifts somehow exist as a seperate entity apart from the Father? If I am pursuing God wholeheartedly will not all these other things fall into place? What if I get in this place where someone tells me that i am to be a teacher, or a prophet, or an evangelist, or a intercessor, and i strive and strive after all these things...will I get anywhere? Won't I soon be right back to square one- weary, complacent, and more in need than ever to get back into the heart of God? YES! ((Who is blind but my servant, and deaf like the messenger I send? Who is blind like the one committed to me, blind like the servant of the Lord? Isa 42)) i hate pride. i hate it. i hate people today. i hate them all.

i think i need to get away from this place. i think i need to get away from all people. i think i need to move into a new season of fasting and prayer. i think i need to lock myself in a closet and pray for a new annointing. i think i need to be ruined again. i think i need to be destroyed again. i think i need to pray for more blindness. i think its time to move into this inside-outside upside-down kingdom. i think its time to do things differently, and take the back door instead of the front. i think its time to take the earth by storm. i think its time i start screaming "wake up sleepy" instead of just thinking it. i think its time to let my heart be moved in my chest cavity as a reflection of the desperation in my soul. i think its time to move into a new realm. i think i need newness. i think we all need newness. i think its time to get away from spiritual bondage. i think its time to be broken. i think its time to move. i think its time to be moved.